Know what I just realised?
I could be independent, and if I were, I'd be a lot less sad. I'd take care of myself first and not constantly try to do nice things for other people because every time I try to do a nice thing for someone, it blows up in my face and I end up feeling like crap. I'd also have to fake smile a lot less.
But if I were independent, I'd be a lot less happy. I'd detach myself from a lot of the people who make me laugh and make me okay, not to mention be thought of as the Local Bitch. I don't want to be that person but you know, sometimes you don't have the energy to be "okay."
Sorry about this one, but lately there haven't been a lot of people around to express my frustration to, and this spot is usually where I'm most honest.
PS - I had a Tom Hanks in "You've got Mail" moment today. I zinged someone when I should've just smiled and walked away. Oops.
Now I'm sort of unclear on what you mean by independant - like cut off from all other people or something?
ReplyDeleteThat's not right.
Independance is growth, and growing apart from those that have supported you - learning from them and bringing all of that you have learned along within yourself. Independance is being able to be happy by yourself, as well as sane, and then being able to come back to the world when you want to - independance is NOT being forced to come back to the world by outside forces.
Independance is freedom, and power, and deserves respect.
But away from all that - I'm not going to say 'try to be happier'. You should just be happier, and do what you want, and not care about reciprocation when you do nice things for people. Sometimes people forget, or don't notice, the nice things... and there's no reason to be angry or depressed about that.
Just shove it in there face again and go all like - 'AND WHAT DO YOU SAY WHEN SOMEONE DOES SOMETHING NICE FOR YOU!!!!???!?!?!?!'
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End, Sorry, Long comment......
Thank you for making me laugh.
ReplyDeleteAnd thank you for putting the wrong "their" there. :-)
Ack, grammar mistake...
ReplyDelete*Face Palm*
You can always tell when I'm tired...